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Once Upon a December12/23/2017 It has been years, and yet the changes are still permanent. Others may be excited about the prospect of the oncoming holiday cheer. But not me, the holidays have a different effect on me. Others feel happiness, I feel an onslaught of pain.
It has always been like this for me ever since. I thought it will be gone soon, this feeling of pain brought about by memories I thought were long gone. For eleven months I feel no pain, no emotion except for one month, December. This is the month I fear the most. The only time of the year that I feel everything, The only month I get to have feelings. Suddenly I would feel love for friends, family, and even strangers, pain from old wounds resurface. December is the time of the year I suffer quietly alone. I know it's strange for me to feel this way. I didn't want it to be this way either, it just happened. What am I to do? No one will understand this personal struggle, not even me. It's very dangerous to have these thoughts I know. Unfortunately, all I could do is hope that December ends as fast as it can.
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